Who's Expecting?!

I have a few friends who are expecting, including a childhood friend and another friend who's now expecting twins! We couldn't be happier :) I wanted to share some photos of expecting celebs and some inspiring style. I love getting dressed everyday and showing off my belly! I only have a few more months of this! I'm going to share photos of my own favourite outfits but for now enjoy some of Hollywood's favourite expecting mama's. I'm all about Hollywood as we gear up for Out There's Celebrity Lounge and Interview Studio for the Toronto International Film Festival. It's the busiest time of the year for this PR mama. It's my third year in a row, first one without Phil and last one with Out There. I'm giving it my all!

Ali Landy, adorable dress. I love wearing prints!

Beyonce- By far most exciting announcement!

Very pregnant Alyssa Milano

Hilary Duff. Never cuter.

We love our prenatal yoga!

Jenna Fischer from The Office! She had her boy but I included this adorable and very pregnant shot because it's a happy one.

Melanie Brown- Sexy dress

Niki Taylor- Pretty pregnant photo

Beautiful "see you soon"

We said good bye for the second time. I was upset that I said good bye. It's I'll see you later. It's a little easier the second time because now we're only going to be a month a part instead of two. I was really spoiled having Phil visit for a week. We got everything done- our room, baby room switch, furniture discussions and failed shopping trips, boat party, friends with babies, shows, his 25th birthday and more. He's so much fun. Having him home makes me realize how much I love him and how I value his company and reasoning in my everyday life. I'm happy and proud he's back on the road filming. Having him gone makes me respect him even more and value our life together even more. I kept saying "I can't wait until he comes back so we can really begin our life together". I don't know why I said that (to myself). Our life together is happening now! It's been happening for the past two years and six months. And this is not the last project he'll work on away from home. He's a home body, he loves his family. But he loves his work and he's being the strongest and most optimistic person. I look forward to making each day he's gone worthwhile and lived out to the most so we can both share stories. I've gotten really big. I have no pictures to post because they're on the camera Phil took on the road but he'll send me the files.
For now I'm going to continue my day in bed eating his birthday cake and watching sappy, family love movies. So far I've watched The Family Stone, In her shoes and now it's PS I love you.

Itchy belly!

At work right now but frankly I don't feel like working on sponsorships. I'm just thinking about Fashion Week in October :) Hoping to get accredited this year.

I have the itchy belly syndrome ahhhhh! Must resist. I used Bio Oil every night on my skin, I like it better than coconut oil.

 Baby is beginning to move a lot! It's unreal :)

Now we listen to music together :)

One ear bud in mom's ear, one in the shirt for the baby. So many music myths. I know my baby hears sounds now so why not!

The Fifth month. Weeks 23-24

All the photos posted here were taken Thursday, August 11 and I was glowing. My belly has popped, my boobs are glowing and I fregan feel and look amazing. It shocks me when my emotions still come down on me in full force as they did last night when speaking to Phil. What was supposed to be a quick convo about our day and my financial situation resulted in hours of endless speeches and now he's coming home this weekend. He's not coming just because of my emotional outburst. It's a better plan because our uncertainty with our plan to have me go out east was getting to me because time is ticking. With my job and TIFF approaching, doctor and midwife appointments, broken cell phone, changes in the house and limited time I was and am feeling more overwhelmed than ever before. I spoke to my midwife about my concerns today and she said, well of course if you're stressed it can affect the baby and release cortisol to the baby but that has to be pretty extreme. She says the major concern is on ME. If I'm healthy, baby is healthy. It's something I knew, but I've been so hard on myself it was overlooked. I really felt like I needed a day to myself. Ever since Phil left I have been out and busy and I could not go to work today especially after facing the money pinchers at Bell Mobility. I'm glad I came home. I went to Booster Juice and they didn't have any lids left. I began to tear because I was scared to get dust from the outside construction into my body. Oh brother. I drank my protein and calcium smoothy anyway and I've been to the washroom THREE times today. Pregnant ladies ya'll know what I'm talkin about. I think I broke a pregnant record.
Anyways I came home, had a half bath/half shower, cleaned my room, set up some baby stuff and wrote Thank You  cards for my past baby shower. I was in the middle of prenatal yoga when Phil called to tell me about his amazing skate and filming day with www.couragecanada.ca and confirmed he was booking a flight and looking forward to coming home this weekend for a breather. He's so good to his family and me and I'm so thankful. It's going to be a good visit, and give us that extra boost before we got the next month (all of September) with no visit as of yet. I mean, we've gone a couple weeks with no contact before but I think this time around it's harder because of the current situation (pregnancy, things changing in the house). I know I can do it without my partner because he honestly checks in all day. I have to learn to go day-by-day and stop worrying. Phil carried on today as if I didn't overreact and say things last night. He knows it's not me but I need to realize I can save myself and our baby some extra breath if I can calm myself early enough and just keep to the positive, day-by-day. He's filming his first on-the-road doc and going through our first pregnancy. He's coming home to visit like a true champ and we're going to spoil him and send him back out to finish what he does best. I'm so proud.

Let's do a baby update!
Gender: They're still saying Girl! ouuu my little friend and daddy's girl :)
Cravings: Italian! Pizza! Pasta! Tomato Sauce!
Baby: Small little movements :) I felt the biggest one to-date yesterday
Travel: I hope to make it to my cottage next weekend. I can still fly too so if a spontaneous opportunity comes up to go see the boys on the road then I will. But for now I have to remember to be pregnant and see them in Ontario. My time will come.
Other symptoms: Bleeding gums, visual veins
Exercise: Yoga :)

xoxPRMOMthinkstoomuch

The Week of Life

It's been the longest week of my life. Now that is Sunday, let's see how much we've grown.
Monday: Phil leaves to film Courage Canada doc (see previous post)
Tuesday: Work was pretty long and crappy day. Ended with 'moms' night out with Amy (has a 5 week old named Rex), Alexis (no baby, she's just awesome), and myself (mom-to-be). We went to see The Change-Up, so there were babies involved, but it was funny. A lot of dirty humour!
Wednesday: Honda presentation. It was my first presentation to a media agency. I started out confident, grew a bit nervous when Melissa had me start it, and in the end we did our best and we'll see what happens! We had put together a kick ass presentation and integration video for the Honda reps. I'm sure they loved it. They were completely two different characters; one was interested and involved and the other one played his part well as the stone face.
Following the meeting Melissa DiMarco treated her amazing marketing team to some amazing food at the Firkin on King. She was very concerned about feeding the pregnant lady. It was a good place to wait because I knew Becca was on her way in from out of town. We almost waited long enough for Becca to meet us, but between her getting lost and the wasp that kept trying to land on Melissa's jerk chicken we had to call it a day early. Once I found my stranded friend, we began a night of girl talk, nachos, and movies. Phil called me at 11pm (midnight his time in Halifax) to wish me a Happy Birthday. It was so overly sweet and amazing and it did result in some tears on my end.

Thursday morning arrived, the morning of my 23rd birthday. My girlfriend curled my hair and we got ready for a day out at Toronto Island and ended it with a night at the movies. We finally went to see Bridesmaids! It was really good! Not only is it a funny comedy, but it had that great message about hitting bottom and going no where but up. A great pick-me-up. The day had an emotional start though, once again with me being pregnant during my birthday, another first, and missing Phil of course. When we finally spoke I was overwhelmed with missing him, missing my family and regret of not being in Halifax. I still wish we could have planned this week better but we still wouldn't take back that Monday. Our time to visit will come soon, but I really have to stop dwelling on the when. I felt so spent. So tired of crying and feeling like I'm stressing out our baby. He was hurting on the other end too and I felt that. Finally I reached the point where although we were apart, I knew we were feeling the same emotions. Because tears and regret were involved I realized I had to calm down and I didn't want that as a memory when he was over there making history and his first real documentary film. His soothing voice calmed me down and I continued on with my day and it ended beautifully. At midnight he called again, and by that time his brother had delivered a special cake to me so I looked at it while he was on the other end of the line. It said " Happy Jordan Year Love." lol. Before Phil I would have had no idea what the hell that means. But Jordan's number was 23 as was Phil's, and me turning 23 turned out to be more exciting for him than I thought. It was a very cute Betty Boop/Basketball cake. Even though I didn't need any more reassuring, that moment showed how much we know and love each other for who we are. Phil's my inspiration. Striving for the silver lining in life, pushing forward and always smiling with a never ending love for his family. As much as I miss him and I hug my body pillow (gift from his mama), I know that he has me and our baby in full focus everyday. He's the most passionate person I know and I can't say enough about how much I trust and love him more than ever and anyone else.
Now moving on to Friday: Visit to Urban Barn to view our furniture choices for Out There's suite at the Toronto International Film Festival. Once again, Melissa DiMarco wanted to feed me but I almost said no because my dress choice that day was feeling a little tight. We went for lunch to East Side Mario's. Mmm! Following that I went home to only feel a little low and tired but I had a Toronto Blue Jays baseball game to go to. Once I finally got a hold of Phil and he said he really hopes I go, I managed to get up and meet my girlfriend. It was a great night. I came home that night and didn't cry for the first time all week. Thank goodness.
Saturday: I spent alllllll day doing baby laundry! Becca had brought me a selection of girl, boy and unisex clothing for baby so I had a lot of fun sorting everything. Wilma and I also had a great talk about the room switch and baby room plans and I'm so excited to move forward! The night led to Christina's 23rd birthday at Betty's. Note: Betty's rules! It was a neat upstairs lounge with sofas and amazing food. Everyone was sooo cute asking about how it feels to be pregnant and how life is changing. I came home last night and didn't cry... YAY! I sang my baby to bed. I've also started putting one of my ear buds to my belly to share my music with the little one. Hope it works!
Today: I was in bed lazily hugging my Phil body pillow and just got up to pee when he called. Perfect timing just to say I miss you. They are getting closer to coming home! So proud. It's truly an amazing adventure. I can't believe he's living the RV kinda life lol. Keep it up boy, xo.

xoxStillanemotionalPRMOM

And it begins...the Courage Canada trip

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Phil's belly needs love too!

The number one baby right now

Putting on the new BIG wheels

Getting the ride ready. He'll be skateboarding to film

He left today for the journey from Halifax to Toronto has begun! Phil left with a car load of boys and a new mohawk to bring the RV from Toronto to Halifax in two days. On August 13, Mark DeMontis will lead Courage Canada in a skate from Halifax to Toronto to raise awareness to blind youth and adults nationwide. Phil is going to capture every minute of it and the project is going towards their documentary. This is so good for their careers, goals and life experiences. Plus I told Phil he can now chose some neat places for us to travel together and visit :)
We had a beautiful last day, just doing some last minute packing, hugging and laughing. There were tears but way more smiles. There's a lot of love and trust. There's a lot of faith, encouragement and future. A few people ask when is he back? then they ask and when are you due again? I also get a lot of "wow you are going to be lonely!"
Those comments don't really help folks. How about playing the positive patties and leaving behind the sad donkey look. As much as I do love him with all my heart and I need him in my life, I need him to do this trip. This trip is going to make us both stronger and when he returns it's going to be a love like never before. We've been friends and lovers for two and a half years but we have this unbreakable connection and steady, real foundation that keeps us human. He puts me in my place and I put him in his. When times get tough he's usually the one to calm the situation and through him I've grown and learned to love myself and everyone around me even more. Through this individual time we both have a lot of time to think about who we are individually and what we want for each other and our baby and how we're going to reach those goals. It's a really healthy experience.
He's going to see Canada during an experience where he'll be touching thousands of people by capturing the Courage Canada story through his lens. He's going to live each day in a new place and meet so many people. He's already so warm to everyone and meeting new people in new places for this cause is just going to define his truly genuine soul even more. And I want him to know I'm with him and supporting him every stride of the way. We will share stories, we'll laugh, we'll vent and we'll wish we were together especially during our first pregnancy. We had some tears today as he kissed my belly goodbye and spoke to our baby. I cry now just thinking about it. It's always a beautiful moment. He was here for the first four months, away for two months and returns for the rest. It worked out perfectly considering he's here for the beginning and end; the moments a pregnant woman needs the most calm and support. I remember still holding my pregnancy test and one of the first thoughts that ran through my heard were about the trip and how he still has to go no matter what. And although some days I didn't think I could do this alone, I believe in Phil so much, and I'm living with his amazing family through all of this. Everyone at home is proud of you love!
This is why I originally made this blog. A place for story telling, photos and thoughts. It may get a lot more personal the next two months but I'm ready to share my story and true love with everyone. When those green eyes looked at me today they said a million words and captured a moment in our history but our lips didn't need to move at all. I know babe, I know.
This is it. The trip has begun now get the hella home!
Stay 100 percent involved with the boys at www.couragecanada.ca 

P.s. I lent him my canon still camera baby to compliment his canon video camera baby... Expect some posts at www.phillydfilms.blogspot.com 

I gave him a Mohawk before he left today lol. Looks good!

The Courage Canada cake at the party Saturday night. It looked good until I smushed the GOOD.

And the winner is....

I could barely concentrate at work all week. I just wanted to come home and stay glued to Phil's body. So much anticipation! Boy or girl?! Plus he leaves on Monday for the Courage Canada Halifax to Toronto campaign. We really wanted to find out together, not through a phone call. Smiling eye to eye and eyes swollen with happy tears, the ultrasound technician confirmed: Legs closed.
But she thinks it's a girl and smiled :)

Let's approach with caution.

22 weeks

 It has been such a wild ride lately! It began last Friday night when we left for a weekend at my cottage "Carrey Camp" up north. We did a midnight photoshoot when my cousin pulled an unbelievable mission from North Bay to bring us up from Toronto. It was an amazing weekend as I was going up to surround myself with family and introduce Phil to many members he still had to meet on that side of the family. It turns out they love Phil of course and they had planned a surprise Baby Shower! I've never had a Baby Shower before and holy it was humbling and everything happened really fast! Those details will come in another blog. So we made it back to Toronto on Monday with everything. I was so blown away from all the love we received. I was also and still am full of nerves with Phil's cross Canada tour count down. I have to stop getting teary eyed because we both need eachother to stay strong. I told him I'm doing push ups to help build my strength and I think he believed me... Between Phil leaving, the enormous King of the Dot event this weekend, birthdays, work and baby, I'm finally getting around to posting photos from 21 weeks the night before we turn 22 and find out the gender :) I'm postin blogs, and he's postin videos. Great team!

Two very excited people